All Hope Is Not Lost, Finding Out I Was Pregnant With Baby #2

The birth of my first daughter traumatized me. For years I swore I would never have another child. I had a 3rd degree tear with my first and the recovery took months. From her birth to her eczema and allergies, I didn't think I'd have enough in me for another baby. 

Fast forward a few years after Maia's birth and I felt like something was missing in our family. I grew up with a sibling and wanted the same for her. However, I didn't want to bring into the world another little one for the sake of my daughter having a playmate. Then it happened. The same feeling that I had felt when I knew that I wanted to get pregnant the first time came over me again. Something felt missing in our family and I knew it was time to try for another baby. 

Getting pregnant with my first took almost a year, so I expected it to take some time this time around. We tried for a year and I still was not pregnant. I was charting and actually putting effort into it since my biological clock was ticking. A few more months rolled by and nothing. Each pregnancy test I took, I was slowly losing hope. I finally told myself that it just wasn't in the cards for me. I told my husband let's just get a dog and stop trying. I didn't want to be pregnant after this year because I wanted to concentrate on my business since Maia would be going to Kindergarten soon. If it was meant to be it would have but it just wasn't happening, so I gave up. I cried for days to myself alone over the whole situation.

A few weeks after the talk I had with my husband I was just feeling "off." No throwing up, nothing really. I just didn't feel like myself so I decided to take one more pregnancy test. I had a ton that I had ordered off Amazon so I figured, why not? 

A few minutes after taking the test there were 2 pink lines. Is it possible!? I took 2 more and they each told me I was pregnant. I didn't know what to feel. We had already adopted a dog and I had come to terms with never giving Maia a sibling. Doesn't the world work in such strange ways? Thrill finally filled me and happiness followed. I couldn't wait to tell Maia and my husband!

 The actual tests. Of course I had to document this moment!

The actual tests. Of course I had to document this moment!

I ran out to the living room and told her that I had a secret. She was so excited when I told her she squealed, "I always wanted to be a sister mommy!" We planned to tell my husband with a card made by her. It was sweet, he came home from work and she handed him her card. He opened it in shock. We all screamed in excitement as a family.  I'll never forget that day when all hope was not lost. I guess sometimes this world knows what is best for you even when you may not.

 That awkward part of pregnancy where you just look like you ate too much and have a food baby.

That awkward part of pregnancy where you just look like you ate too much and have a food baby.